TRINITY COLLEGE CHAPEL
REUNION WEEKEND

Pentecost III [June 12, 1994] (Proper 6B)
Canon Richard T. Nolan

      "I just want to be happy, successful, and fulfilled. I don't expect all that just to be handed to me; I'm willing to work hard." If we have not spoken these words, many of us have quietly assumed all they mean. Because of the quality education received here, Trinity College graduates should have an advantage as we work for full happiness, success, and fulfillment. We achievers might even consider ourselves entitled to such benefits.

     There is no doubt that, in words of the current Catalogue, the College has helped most of us to discover our strengths, develop our individual potential, and prepare ourselves for lives that are both personally satisfying and valuable to others. We experienced here the liberating studies, those that set the mind free from provincial constraints and intellectual frailty. On this campus many of us developed cherished relationships that continue to this day.

     However, even the best colleges, of which this is undoubtedly one, are not designed to provide the entire course to true and complete happiness, success, and contentment. Among degree holders everywhere, one can discover a significant number bearing feelings of unhappiness, deficiency, and discontent. For example, a productive, multi-millionaire with a two billion dollar company was recently quoted as feeling trapped, saying, "I want to be bigger." Some others who had a keen awareness of well-being while working acquire an uneasiness after they leave their careers. In this regard, a New York Times Magazine writer observed in an April essay: "Several friends who retired recently told me how painful and demeaning they find it to no longer be who they have always been, to no longer have the sense of value and worth they always had." Within my hearing a retired priest lamented, "I'm not asked to celebrate the Eucharist much, and I'm having a hard time with that; being a priest is a central part of my identity." Must we be doing something, must we "keep busy" to experience happiness, success, and fulfillment? For genuine well-being, must we rely on our levels of productivity? Are we addicted to cherished roles and responsibilities? Are we primarily what we do? If so, something is missing from our education; our liberation is insufficient.

     I confess to the conviction that who we are most basically is not anything that we do. Instead, our fundamental well-being and self-worth are grounded in our shared identity as unique children of God joining in community as God's own people. Jews can experience this identity by affirming their hereditary covenant, Christians through baptism into the new covenant community, and Muslims by embracing their very nature as children of God.

     Fifty-seven years ago this month I was baptized; forty-five years ago this very day I was confirmed. The seeds of my identity were planted, even though I didn't comprehend what was happening at either time. Years later I learned from our College's only religion professor that it was all right to think about religion, to distinguish biblical from other convictions, and to believe in an informed way. Many matters of the mind and heart came together, and during my sophomore year I realized that I really wanted to be a Christian. Retired Bishop Lewis Bliss Whittemore was our interim chaplain. In his office here I nervously told him that my confirmation didn't mean much to me, that I had no memory of my baptism, and only now did I consciously choose to be a Christian. Bishop Whittemore stood up behind his desk and, as if in procession, walked to a large closet and prayerfully donned his episcopal vestments. I wondered whether my attitude toward my infant baptism and uninformed confirmation warranted an exorcism! "Come with me," he beckoned gently. I followed, even more ill at ease, as we silently descended the stairs to the cool, dim crypt chapel. He lit the candles. We stood before the altar, he facing me. My uneasiness was quelled as he opened the Prayer Book and adapted the Service of Confirmation; my vows as a Christian, a child of God, were made new. In this holy event he laid his hands on my head, touched me deeply, and signified a new birth.

     With each year that has passed I have been nurtured in heart and mind by all that we do here this morning. In these liturgical acts we are renewed as to who we really are or can be, if we choose to affirm our baptismal identity and live it out, though blundering as we go. No matter how satisfying our resumes are (and we should take pride in our accomplishments), they do not define us. Nor are they the most profound or effective sources of true happiness, real success, or genuine fulfillment. For an understanding of authentic success, hear from another bishop's words spoken at an episcopal consecration: "And Matthew said that Jesus came and put forth His hand and touched them. ...That is the secret and the heart of His ministry, and that is the secret of His life: reaching and touching out of love in order to bring God's love and nearness...to people, one by one. ...So in the years ahead, yes, be for great causes and speak for great causes and work for great causes, for (the) poor and oppressed and for the disenfranchised, but no more resolutions, no more speeches; let it be touching, let it be love. ...Stretch forth your hands...and help us to continue to stretch forth our hands, too. For Jesus stretched forth His hand, and touched them, and brought them life." You and I touching the lives of others with God's love and our own, and allowing others to touch our lives as well: this is doing the will of God; this is true success. Bound up in the same touching love are genuine happiness and fulfillment.

     A vessel that can provide us with a significant foretaste of complete happiness, success, and fulfillment is the fallible, irritating, long-winded, divided, sometimes cruel and unwise Church, the sacred household of baptized people. We need to understand always that the imperfect Church is not God's Kingdom, but an assembly of human beings on the way, through Christ. Only in the fully established Kingdom of God will you and I be completely happy, successful, and fulfilled.

     Today's reading from Mark reminds us that seeds of the Kingdom of God are growing without any human efforts. It is being established by God in ways beyond our understanding or control, often through the Christian Church's proclamation of the Gospel, through our shared ministry strengthened by God's steadfast faith and love. Moreover, like the mustard seed becoming the greatest of all shrubs, the beginnings of God's realm are small, but by its very nature the Kingdom of God will grow to its intended establishment, startlingly different in size from its beginnings.

     Although our alma mater bears a sacred Name, education here is not designed to guide and nurture students as participants in the Church or the Kingdom of God. With all of its vital, liberating goals and achievements, with all of Trinity's gifts to us, the College's stated secular mission and purposes do not include nurturing students in a fundamental identity as unique children of God. Although this splendid building is obviously here, staffed and is used, I cannot find any reference to campus ministries for Jews, Christians, or others in the current college catalogue. Who we truly are, accompanied by profound foretastes of genuine happiness, success, and fulfillment, will not come to us by hard work and academic or vocational excellence. Instead, these blessings are handed to us in touching, life-giving, responsive moments: possibly in a classroom or a faculty member's office, and, yes, deliberately within the communal life of biblical heritages, including the household of Christ's faithful people...perhaps at prayer this morning or at another time in a cool, candlelit, crypt chapel as a chaplain ministers in the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.